6/16/11 - A life of legacy and no fear

Started off with a letter from my beautiful Prince in “His Princess Bride”. It was about how He wants to lead me. He wants to take every step with me, and guide me towards a life of legacy. A “life of legacy”…that sounds like all I could ask for…. Before I started reading that, I had just listened to “Set the World on Fire” by Britt Nicole, my perfect prayer. That’s exactly what I want to do. I want to get the world on fire for God! I want to be the one He uses to do that! I want Him to take my dreams and give them wings (and I think He’s already starting to give them flight, with my audition for worship at LCU going so well!)! I want to feed the hungry! I want to travel the world and leave one of His footprints in every place I serve! I want to tell the broken there is healing and hope and mercy in God!  I know I’m small and weak, but I know that God is big enough and strong enough to take me incredible places. I know that with Him there is absolutely nothing I can’t do! This is the life of legacy I desire, and I know that if I let God lead me, I will make the mark I’m hoping for.

Then in my PURE devotional, I read about fear. I just have to thank God so much for always telling me exactly what I need to hear. Rebecca talked about having so much fear and instead of “thriving” in life, she was simply “surviving”…how she would just try to overcome one challenge after another...she would just try not to fail. She said that: “It has taken quite some time for me to wake up to the reality that this is not the mindset God intends for me. He doesn’t want me to just survive. He wants me to live with a passion for Him and for others.”

Wow…I kind of had a break down yesterday…(and I sadly forgot to take time out of my busy day to give God my time of worship and devotion, so technically I would’ve had this devotion yesterday when it was still so fresh and exactly pertaining to what I was feeling…) I was stressed about finding a job. My dad is majorly pressuring me into getting a job and working as much as I possibly can in order to earn money towards college. He helped me fill out applications and he pretty much made me put down that I’d be willing to work during Christmas week and Thanksgiving week….I’m still kind of upset about that…maybe very upset…though I never expressed that to him…I really really DON’T want to work during that time since it’ll be my only time off from school until my spring break…and I’d like to spend that time with my family!! Hopefully, if they do hire me, I won’t  have to work much at that time…

Kim Walker, On His Mind, and Seeking/Honoring God - 6/14/11

Here's my first blog about what God has been teaching me. I wrote this a few days ago. Hope you like it and you get something out of it.

Well I watched this video, this testimony from Kim Walker who I learned is a worship leader working with Jesus Culture. It was phenomenal. I’m not completely sure what all went down, but she gave a really amazing picture of Jesus, and His love for me. She talked about asking Jesus how much He loved her and how He stretched out His arms and they just kept stretching and stretching, never ending. Then later she asked Him what He was thinking when He created her. Then she saw God take out a chunk of His heart and then it turned into clay. God formed the clay into a mini version of her and put her into a treasure/jewelry box. It was like those that you open and the ballerina spins. But when God opened it, it was her dancing and singing, just worshiping Him. Well God was just amazed!! He was soo enthused by it! So excited to see her worshiping Him. He was like clapping and shouting…screaming for her. He would close it and then open it again and be just as excited as the first time. Then He took her in His hand and brought her closer and closer to His chest until He finally put her back in the place where He took the chunk out of His heart…the place where she fit perfectly.

It was just really incredible to think about how much God truly loves me. How His love is never ending, and how much He thoroughly just enjoys me. How He is just soo incredibly happy to see me praising and enjoying Him. How He holds a special place for me in His heart. It was just…amazing!

Where am I at?

So a lot has happened in my life since I've last updated this blog. I thought maybe I should fill you in so you won't be super lost when I mention things in my new posts.
So, this past year was my senior year in high school. I was super super involved, and I actually totally overwhelmed myself. I was Student Council president, NHS president, I did drama and praise band, tutoring, piano lessons, things at church, I lead devotions (about every other week), and I was also trying to get things settled for college in the fall. But I got through it with God's help. It's so sad for me to be leaving my school, but I'm so excited about college!! :)
I'm headed to a small Christian university. My dad's alma mater. He always had dreams of me going there, and I also decided it was the best place for me. I couldn't see myself going anywhere else right now. :) Everyone there is just so incredibly nice and encouraging. And most importantly, it's so Christ-focused!! I know that I'm going to grow so much spiritually. And I'm majoring in music ministry. :) For a point in my life I was really doubtful of whether that's where God wanted me to be, but He made it so clear to me. I was just so thankful for Him removing the doubt.
I just registered and it looks like once again I'm going to be very busy. I don't think I can commit myself to any more than I'm already planning to. God is definitely going to have to help me or else I might start to drown in all of my work.
I am just ecstatic to see what God has in store for my future.
I think that's most of it anyway. :)
I'll probably post later to kind of start the series of my journaling posts...the personal ones of what God is doing in my life. :)
~Amy