Here's my first blog about what God has been teaching me. I wrote this a few days ago. Hope you like it and you get something out of it.
Well I watched this video, this testimony from Kim Walker who I learned is a worship leader working with Jesus Culture. It was phenomenal. I’m not completely sure what all went down, but she gave a really amazing picture of Jesus, and His love for me. She talked about asking Jesus how much He loved her and how He stretched out His arms and they just kept stretching and stretching, never ending. Then later she asked Him what He was thinking when He created her. Then she saw God take out a chunk of His heart and then it turned into clay. God formed the clay into a mini version of her and put her into a treasure/jewelry box. It was like those that you open and the ballerina spins. But when God opened it, it was her dancing and singing, just worshiping Him. Well God was just amazed!! He was soo enthused by it! So excited to see her worshiping Him. He was like clapping and shouting…screaming for her. He would close it and then open it again and be just as excited as the first time. Then He took her in His hand and brought her closer and closer to His chest until He finally put her back in the place where He took the chunk out of His heart…the place where she fit perfectly.
It was just really incredible to think about how much God truly loves me. How His love is never ending, and how much He thoroughly just enjoys me. How He is just soo incredibly happy to see me praising and enjoying Him. How He holds a special place for me in His heart. It was just…amazing!
Then I did my regular devotion time. I read a part in my “His Princess Bride”. It was the letter entitled “I can’t stop thinking about you”. It was so beautiful, thinking about how I am always on God’s mind. I always start thinking deep…and I think about how God is always thinking about every one of His children. It just amazes me!! How can He always be thinking about everyone?? But then I think…well I don’t have to understand. He’s God. He’s so superior to me! There are things I just can’t comprehend… But then I thought, well if He’s always thinking about everyone, why is it a big deal? Why am I special?...I think that God thinks about all of us constantly, as if we were the only person He created…wow! What an amazing thought that is? His love is soo deep! Then in the Bride’s response the last sentence was “May I never stop looking for You as You continue to reveal Your love to me each new day.” For some reason that made me think about the story of Mary and Martha. Even though Martha was doing a good thing…she was trying to serve others, and more importantly her Lord, but Jesus was so much more impressed, I guess that’s the word, with Mary who was simply sitting at His feet, listening to Him. It made me think about my life and how, I always want to do stuff for God. I want to find ways in which I can serve Him. But maybe God wants me to spend a little less time working for Him, and more time just working on my relationship with Him, searching for Him, seeking His heart.
Then lastly I read out of Pure, day 12, and it was about feeding yourself spiritually, and how you should hunger for things that will bring you closer to God. Kind of what I’d been doing my devos about at school. One of the questions was “To feed your mind things that honor God, what do you need to do less of?” Got me thinking that a lot of the things I do, don’t really bring me close to God. Don’t really do anything for me spiritually. Things like getting online, watching movies/tv, reading some books…they don’t necessarily cause me to do anything bad, but at the same time, do they honor God? They might not be sinful, but do they bring God HONOR? Do they lift God UP? Well, not really… Sometimes, but not consistently. Then I thought, should I be giving those things up? Would God want me to? I enjoy a lot of those things, and they aren’t really hurting me…but they aren’t making me grow too much either? Where do I find the balance? Or is it even okay for me to balance? Is it okay for me to have that stuff at all? Hmm…this is what’s been on my mind. I would like to dig into God’s word and just see what He’s saying about this stuff. Maybe a Psalm talks about God providing us with entertainment (or whatever the word might be) and how we are to enjoy it….or maybe in Ecclesiastes, Solomon says that that stuff is really pointless and that I shouldn’t waste my time…hmm…. I guess I’ll just have to meditate on it… I mean, I think it would make me sad to give up some of that stuff…but at the same time, I know that God can bring me all of the satisfaction and joy that I need…. God, lead me and I’ll follow.
The End. If you want to watch the video of Kim Walker's testimony, you can check it out here;
~Amy
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